Easy Mac

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2:19 am. Sunday, September 25th. 2011.

At the moment, I am in my kitchen waiting for my Easy Mac to cool down. It is Spongebob shaped, which makes it even yummier.

I can hear some noise coming from the appliances that sounds like crickets humming a tune of loneliness. Helping me feel more alive as I sit here in silence waiting for S-bob to cool down.
Ah, the exciting life of an 18 year old college student.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately of ways I can keep myself happy. It is very often that I find myself confined to my room, stuck there like an inmate. There only so many movies you can watch on Netflix. Anyway, I find I do get awfully lonely. I am making friends, but it is hard to when everyone is ready to bite your head off at the last second. And by that, I am referring to my being a Theatre Major. You always have competition, whether they are good or bad. There is always some kind of competition. It's like even if you breathe the wrong way, they are going to rip your face off and tell you that you did that wrong.

At times like that, I begin to wonder if this is something I really want to do. Ya know? Do I really wanna go through all of that hassle just to maybe get cast?

But then I get on that stage, and somethiing inside me comes alive and I am someone very different. Like something primal comes out and makes me so focused. The feeling of having that stage underneath my feet is like ascending a grand staircase in a beautiful gown in front of thousands of people, but the one person you really want there is at the bottom of the staircase waiting for you. And you don't trip or fall or stumble. Everything is perfect. THAT is the feeling I get when I get on a stage.

Well, my Easy Mac is cool. I guess I will see you around.

Goodnight.

-Sarah