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2:39 pm

So, I recieved a letter from my auntie Rosanna the other day. So last night I wrote her back. I'm excited for her to be my pen pal =] Also, my friends Kate and Ashley (no not Mary-Kate and Ashley ha ha) both decided to be my pen pals. I'm liking the idea of writing letters more than texting or writing on walls on Facebook. Ya know? You get to write more about your week and how you are really doing. Because when you write it online, everyone can see it. And there is some stuff that not everybody needs to know. I hope to gain more pen pals over the next little while. Like friends from back home and everything.

Well this was kind of a pointless post. But oh well. =] pretty picture, huh? i took it!

Really?

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12:26 am.

So...... Today was very crappy.

I was on the verge...

Almost tipping over the edge....

Then I came to terms with the fact that I have nothing really in my life....

And I started to cry. No not cry... bawl.

You see, it all started while I was looking at Peter Pan pictures while sitting on my couch. Then I realized I had no friends. And that I'm alone, and sad, betrayed, alone, yadda yadda yadda. It hit me hard and of course, right on cue, tears welled up and rushed down my face.

And to add the happy cherry on top of my awful Sundae... someone put a fake rat in my cupboard.... I know they didn't mean anything by it. But it was the straw that broke the camels back and sent me into hysterics...

I just feel so.... unimportant.

I FEEL LOST.

I don't know what to do.....

Mummy Pizza

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12:41 am.

So today (technically yesterday) it was my turn to make dinner for my roommates! Since it was the day before Halloween [my second favorite holiday] I made some haunting grub. I invited my brother and sister-in-law over for dinner and we all enjoyed a delicious meals. I made Mini Mummy Pizzas, "boo cups," and Green Ghoulade. I also made little cut out ghosts and taped them to bendy straw, and I made apple juice ice cubes with gummy worms in them. It was an awesome meal.

Gilmore Girls

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2:14 pm. Sunday September 25th, 2011

Oh Gilmore Girls. This is one of my favorite shows and I love watching it. It makes me feel so good inside, like the world is ok. =] Me and three of my roommates are watching from season one. Right now, in this episode, it is snowing. Which makes me excited for fall and winter. =]

I can not wait for fall fashion! I love scarves and hats and boots and jeans. Not to mention nail polish and make up! Oh fall =] 

I mean, don't get me wrong, I LOVE summer. I love everything about summer, the smell, the heat, the snow cones, everything. But something about fall... There is just some magical quality about the feeling of fall. 

I think maybe it's because i LOVE October. I love Halloween. It is my favorite month, well that and December. I love all things Halloween, the holiday, the treats, scary movies. I love dressing up and I love making treats. It is one of the best holidays.

I am so excited for the fashion. I have some pieces that are very cute but I can't wear them because the weather is not right yet. And I love doing make up for fall too. It means red lips, or dark purple lips. Golden and orange eyes. Dark smokey eyes, with a hint of purple or red. But not orange, because that is too cliche for halloween. Oh and I can't forget the nails. Oh the nails! Blacks, dark purples and red, mustard yellows, burnt oranges, olive greens. All of the icky colors... but they look so good on your nails. Oh dear, I am getting so excited. 

Well I must pay more attention to Gilmore Girls, I feel a marathon coming on. 

Toodaloo! 

Easy Mac

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2:19 am. Sunday, September 25th. 2011.

At the moment, I am in my kitchen waiting for my Easy Mac to cool down. It is Spongebob shaped, which makes it even yummier.

I can hear some noise coming from the appliances that sounds like crickets humming a tune of loneliness. Helping me feel more alive as I sit here in silence waiting for S-bob to cool down.
Ah, the exciting life of an 18 year old college student.

Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately of ways I can keep myself happy. It is very often that I find myself confined to my room, stuck there like an inmate. There only so many movies you can watch on Netflix. Anyway, I find I do get awfully lonely. I am making friends, but it is hard to when everyone is ready to bite your head off at the last second. And by that, I am referring to my being a Theatre Major. You always have competition, whether they are good or bad. There is always some kind of competition. It's like even if you breathe the wrong way, they are going to rip your face off and tell you that you did that wrong.

At times like that, I begin to wonder if this is something I really want to do. Ya know? Do I really wanna go through all of that hassle just to maybe get cast?

But then I get on that stage, and somethiing inside me comes alive and I am someone very different. Like something primal comes out and makes me so focused. The feeling of having that stage underneath my feet is like ascending a grand staircase in a beautiful gown in front of thousands of people, but the one person you really want there is at the bottom of the staircase waiting for you. And you don't trip or fall or stumble. Everything is perfect. THAT is the feeling I get when I get on a stage.

Well, my Easy Mac is cool. I guess I will see you around.

Goodnight.

-Sarah

Steering

"Fortune brings in some boats that are not steered." -William Shakespeare

So today was a normal day like any other.
      -Class
      -Sleep
      -Class
      -Eat
      -Sleep
      -Homework

Same old, same old.

But while the day was going along, I didn't really stop to smell the roses, ya know?

I'm beginning to journal more often. Well, I'm trying to. I believe that journaling will help me notice the little things in my life.

I'm also trying to read my scriptures more often. When I read my scriptures, I feel more empowered the next day. Like I can conquer the world. They help me bring the spirit into my life so I can make the right decisions.

To go with the Shakespeare quote, I feel like I have been floating along, not steering through my life. Well steering, but not a lot. haha. But my friends and roommates and my family have helped me focus on what is important in my life, and it has helped me realize my potential as a person.

Well I'm off to bed for the night. I hope you all have a wonderful wonderful rest of your day =]